MEOWwwwww

"The only Christian I wanna talk to now is my CG leader... criesss!" is my MSN post. Ok usually I dont post in consecutive days but I just really am boiling to rant. I really wish my Christian friends would get around and know people and not only that, accomodate people in their life, like what my CG leader wants (and make more effort taking care of my new friends that I intro them too). It's just something that is in my heart to accomodate people and love them. People will only open to you when you open to them. But, just to make an effort takes ... EFFORT. And I'm so angry cos sometimes nobody cares to make more than an effort (Hmm.. the lazy and fear sermon makes sense now). It's like... Hi" Bye", Nice to meet you", See ya" and then Ok, back to the same clique talking about boring, meaningless rant. (they're just too comfortable being in the same group) You know what this reminds me of, my younger Christian days where only cool Christian cliques and ignores everybody else except for hi bye and people like me gets left out. It hurts.
I usually try (really hard) to hang out with them but I feel that now, that I'm needed elsewhere. (Just prayed to God about it and I'm kinda broken about it, I know what I have to do). Like my new Christian friends are actually interested in each others life, want to make an effort with each other, even have a day where we can hang out potbless.
The really sad thing now is that the one Christian I could count on (my CG leader) is really really busy which I can understand and in the end, I end up talking my heart out to non-Christians anyway. Which just goes to show.... God uses people, even those who dont know him yet and its awesome to know that.