God is good!!

Woahh... God has been so good in my life. I made a decision that I knew was right with God but could hurt my heart really really bad.... and He took care of everything. I was abit brokened but in the end, He turned my sorrow in joy.
OH here's another thing to praise God about... haha... I randomly prayed to get a job (something simple)... woahh and now I'm a tutor to this cool kid, teaching Maths ex2 and Physics (And I didnt make any effort to get the job... my friend just called me about it!! WOAHHh I've always wanna be a tutor)... MUAHAHAhahaha.. (I actually feel more brainy now) looks like all the suffering to do Maths Ex2 in HSC is paying off (and the thing is... I'm having so much fun at this cos I LOVE Physics and Maths)!
Hmmm... and also thank God, that I have someone close to me.

Update

Update on my life :: Rebecca St James came for Easter!! She was soo cool! I got inspired to buy a ring (which I havent cos I'm such a procrastinator) because she has one that she says is a promise that she will keep herself pure for the right one. I'll buy myself a ring also!!! MUAHAHAHAAa .... and she sang the song "wait for me" to her beloved. YEAHH!!! I will not accept a guy who isnt pure. Heh! That person should wait for me... end of story. (my mum is like.... err... dear.... then you have to find one soon or else they might all be unpure already... I DONT CAREEEEEE!!!!)
Went to have a potbless at Henny's! Wei Hoa cooks AWESOME!!! Kenang's sate was sooo good! Now I know there's a difference between Malaysian and Indonesian Sate! COOL!!! My "son" and I got to watch Moses on Tv!
Went to Homebush with Po... I mean... Mervyn.. (MUAHAHAHA). And we got lost thanks to ... ME! The funny thing was that we saw some China girl wanting to go DFO and they alight from the bus during that stop and we were laughing at them cos we thought they were at the wrong place (oh it was the right place by the way). Looks like the laughs' on us. So we prayed to get there.. We got the return bus (after being forsaken by the bus driver to a crappy random suburb bus stop) and it was the same bus driver who was like laughing at us. Thank God we got there. (man... and i didnt know i was actually arrogant cos I thought I had the whole trip figured out and forgot to pray). Muahahahaaa it was fun anyway. God has a sense of humour!!
Ohhhh and been spending time with Gene. Too bad he keeps losing to me at checkers (and soon in Puzzle Bubble too)!! It's ok... self-proclaimed grandmaster... not many people have the honour of being beaten by me... Muahahahaaaa....
CG tonight!!! weeeeee !!! time to see my "son" again and all my other great friends... I'm going to adopt son number 2: calvin-san.... Hmmm should I .... muahahahahahahahahahaaaaa

Happy Bday Sanko-chan

Sanko-chan (sista)~Happy Birthday...ooohhh sorry I'm too far away in Australia so cannot give you birthday present (not that I prepared one...OH NO! I dont even have time to go shopping!)..muahahahaa. Eto... how come I didnt get any present from you when I reach my 21st??
Hmm... my life became abit aimless after I grant myself freedom days (for the midsem break) where I dont have to study or do anything I dont want to... So now I think... hmmm WHAT DO I DO?!?!? Ahhhhh~!
Been playing Cluedo with friends. Muahahahaa such a fun game which I always ALMOST win!! Ohohohooo... Which also caused my body clock to go abit haywire since we seem to end the game at about 3am. Ahhh gomen kudasai okaasan!! Couldnt wake up for breakfast .... graaaa
OHHhh Good Friday was awesome. UNITED was soo cool~ kyaaa~
And I met another fellow Christian girl in my QMB class, Ting whois soo cool... personality just like me. (aii... there should be more people like me in the world... dont you think so? OHOHOHooo... but then again, God didnt make duplicates so that everyone is unique... sigh~~)

AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH~

AHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAAAAA~~~ I'm FREE, I'm freeeeeee at last!!!! Weeeeee.... Micro midsession and finance quiz over... and all that's left is QMB which is after the holidaysss!! Weee... now its time to spend time with ME ME ME and some friends. WEeeeeeeee...

I'm tired

I'm emotionally and mentally tired now..... Miss my furankku-kun (bro) and sanko-chan
After tomorrow (quiz), hopefully I have time to go mend myself.. Just feel really touched to my Christian friends who sms me and pray for me. Love you all ~ soo touched...

MEOWwwwww

"The only Christian I wanna talk to now is my CG leader... criesss!" is my MSN post. Ok usually I dont post in consecutive days but I just really am boiling to rant. I really wish my Christian friends would get around and know people and not only that, accomodate people in their life, like what my CG leader wants (and make more effort taking care of my new friends that I intro them too). It's just something that is in my heart to accomodate people and love them. People will only open to you when you open to them. But, just to make an effort takes ... EFFORT. And I'm so angry cos sometimes nobody cares to make more than an effort (Hmm.. the lazy and fear sermon makes sense now). It's like... Hi" Bye", Nice to meet you", See ya" and then Ok, back to the same clique talking about boring, meaningless rant. (they're just too comfortable being in the same group) You know what this reminds me of, my younger Christian days where only cool Christian cliques and ignores everybody else except for hi bye and people like me gets left out. It hurts.
I usually try (really hard) to hang out with them but I feel that now, that I'm needed elsewhere. (Just prayed to God about it and I'm kinda broken about it, I know what I have to do). Like my new Christian friends are actually interested in each others life, want to make an effort with each other, even have a day where we can hang out potbless.
The really sad thing now is that the one Christian I could count on (my CG leader) is really really busy which I can understand and in the end, I end up talking my heart out to non-Christians anyway. Which just goes to show.... God uses people, even those who dont know him yet and its awesome to know that.

I love myself

John 15:12 This is my commandment, That ye love one another, as I have loved you.
Philippians 2:13 For it is God which worketh in you both to will and to do of his good pleasure.

Eh? Is there a problem with loving one's self!? I put that : I love myself : on my MSN and my friend suddenly called me a narcissist (自戀狂). [Thank you HwaHwa for translating... see I dont have to learn mandarin when I have friends and an internet translator: Oh ya.. the internet translate it as : From loves crazily..pfftt!]. And other friends start bombarding me with an aiyoooo .....tsk tsk... cannot one... Christian where can like that..
LET ME GET THIS STRAIGHT : Like I've been explaining and people dont get it. God loves me. I love God. God loves people. I love people. God loves me. I love myself. I'm not talking about vainity or loving myself so much that I put myself on a pedestal and have the whole world bow at my feet or that everything in the world centers about ME ME ME. I'm talking about really purely loving me because God accepted me and made me who I am. Sure I'm not perfect, but God's working in me... So to all the people who thinks I'm far from perfect (I dunno why you would think so anyway..muahaha), BE PATIENT with me. Muahahahaaa.. Conclussion : I see nothing wrong with loving myself. Bottomline : Condemnation is hating yourself : Condemnation is from the devil. End of story.
Oh if anyone thinks I'm mistaken, feel free to write your comments

Meoowwww... I LOVE DAIFUKU after loving chocolates and ice-cream.
What I am doing now : Studying for midsem
What I'll be doing later : POWERHOUSE ^DJ Andy Hunter^ kyaaa~
What I might be doing later : Buy more Daifuku!!!
What I want to do : Get more food from Vince
What my aimless aim is : To be better in Table tennis than Gene and Jeff combined
What I want to find : A download slave for my anime
Who I wanna meet : Christian, Michelle, Liz~, Camei
Who I go to advice about love thats clueless : Calvin (eto....)
What I have to remember or I'll be in trouble : Sanko-chan's (sis) Bday!
Who I wanna bring to church : EVERYBODY ~~
Who I love : God, family, people and MYSELF!!!

Be honest with me

Everyone is human. We need time to laugh, cry, be a little mad or a little sad. As a friend, I don't expect you to be perfect. I dont need you to smile when you're sad or tell me everything is ok when you're breaking apart. Just be yourself when you're with me. No falseness, no pretense. I can laugh with you, I can surely cry with you. Tell me if you need a friend to talk to about how you are feeling or hurting. Cos it breaks me to see you hiding your pain.

Dear God, I wish... I could just reach out... to people... needing your healing rain.