Rebels

I wanna rebel and not study... OH Nooo! But I will thrive, for my family, muahahaaa. Update on portfolio... (errr... earned 49 dollars after there reset the system and make me lose 1000+ from my UGL investment! Noooo now I'm never gonna be able to buy that share at a low price again!
Anyways... today talking abit to Jin about forgiveness.
Let me tell you what I think forgiveness is, to me forgiving means laying everything down before God and trusting him to take care of everything. Forgiving also means forgiving yourself that you cant change the past and whatever happen, happened. Forgiveness means that you dont have evil thoughts for the person you think did you wrong.
Now, we go to what forgiveness is not. (in my opinion) Forgiveness is NOT agreeing with what the person did or saying it's ok he did what he did and "I forgive him". Forgiveness does not mean reconciliation, (from what I think), (imagine, someone takes advantage of you, u forgive that person, doesnt mean u reconcile with him because in the future, that person might do that again, ie, think rapist. [Yes I'm very sensitive about rape issues due to my country having big crime rate in that area and for the victims who suffers the emotional trauma, I dont expect them to reconcile with their predators])
Now we go into actions. There is no excuse for your actions you do to other people or for the life you live that's miserable (if you have 5 basic rights, think of those that have nothing but still have joy). Your past is no excuse. (ie, I killed someone cos my dad was brutal to me... boohoo). You situation is no excuse, (I'm tired so I'm cranky... OH NOOOOO this is my situation, ok I must change myself, yes I know theories, doesnt mean i practice it... mauhahaa).
If you let situation or your past controls you, dont make an excuse for it. Apologize to those you did wrong. I apologized when I let situation control me (I should apologize more... -_- , I'll try to be better! )