A new beginning

MUAHAHAHAHHAHAAHAA.... I am passed being blue and sad. Yes! I got my j0y for living back.. OHOHOHO
Hmm... it could be that I went through all my tough exams already... and easy paper coming this Friday (Japanese!!) ... BUT It's more cos God set me free!!
I went to see Benny Hinn at the Superdome and he was AWESOME... tearss ... So many of my fears, doubt and sadness got taken away by God. (And there was healing too!!) Thank you God. Yes yes I actually lost my joy and purpose for living. Things that seem soo important to me... (HD HD HD, my dreams, vision etc) got burried down and I wonder why I'm in this land down under. I thought that I should have done my degree back home bla bla... money money money... blavla.. But then I felt God told me during the worship (Benny Hinn crusade)... : I sent you here. : And I cant help crying cos God has a purpose for me here, and I'm gonna live a life full of purpose. "Seek ye first the kingdom of God and all these things shall be added onto you." LOVE YOU GOD! Weee


Here's another pic cos I love editing photos (it's the one above lah... with my girlfriends) and I'm so vain that I'm gonna flood my blog with pics of... me!!!
OH NOO!!!!! During the exam period I became a slob and eat eat... NOOOoooo must not lose to Sanko!!!　エクシサイズ　！！Je' taime

Blue

Hmm... notice my Blog is blue. Anyways... why feel so blue? I miss home and Thailand (and shopping and PS2)! Maybe it's also because I'm currently studying for exams... it's not that they are TOO hard, it's just a sad melancholic feeling having to go through them, which reminds me of last year, buckets and buckets of tears.
It was raining... sometimes I always think that rain is just a way God cries for me, cos everytime I feel like crying, it rains. (Muahaha yes I'm so full of it).
Yesterday was my "son's" birthday. (sigh...) He's finally 18, adulthood... aii... as a "mum" I must learn to let go...(Hohohoho). I should post our "family" picture once I get my hands on the pictures. In the mean time, this is a pic of me and Emily on Semester graduation day. Weee..
I've signed up to volunteer for Hillsong conference. Yeah got ticket seats for Rick Warren! *squeals with joy*
Greatest wish :: HD (please God!), Internship, Shopping, Going home to enjoy, never to be sad again.
なんて寂しいですね

むかし むかし

I have to go on a journey. But I don't know how to take away these feelings of sorrow from you. My heart is yours. Even to the ends of the earth, I will surely return to you welcoming me

私は旅立たねばなりません。でも、どうか悲しまないでください。私の心はあなたのもの。たとえ世界の果てからでも、いつか必ず迎えに参ります
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What happen to those times when I get to be a kid again and dream? To not worry about tomorrow, no major sorrows, where the world is just black and white, and the future seem bright, no responsibilities, full of possibilities, innocently believing, that the world is yours for the taking; fairytales, whales.. (yes I cant find another rhyme..bear with me), prince princess, no sense, no logic, nothing is impossible, no pride, no judgement, no commitment.
Weee... Let's face it, everybody has to grow up. I talked to God and cried to him before everytime I feel the weight of the world (or growing up) "Sigh... it's not fun growing up." And he says "I know" and comforts me.

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Update

AHhhh I miss my PS2 and Thailand!! (and my family too!) Currently studying for my exams next week... and I'm having FUN! weeee... this is so much better than Actuarial (Woah I actually know how to do my work!). Only problem is that this year is extra extremely COLD! (Graaaa!! ... dad says : I send you to Sydney cos it's not as cold as Melbourne: dad ah.... I'm frozen, cant.. feel... fingers... God, I'm sorry all the time I complained about the weather in Malaysia being too hot. *repents*)
Oh Update:
Friday : Closing dinner for IH people (as enclosed on photo). Food was GOOD! Kimchi~ I love IH food.
Sunday : Church was good. Got Groovy but didnt have time to sign up for volunteers. Lunch was good and had a good topic to debate... woah.
Miss Carol... HEY WHERE ARE YOU GIRL?!

Who cares

I wanna run... run run run.
away from everything that's weighing me down.
From mundane routine, from people I know...
Wanna go home... play my PS2. Be a kid again.

Woah

Woah ... alot of things have happen... well, at least I think so. I'm just thankful I finished one of the busiest week ever and that Econs assignment has been passed up! Thank God... now all I have to do is focus on the finals!!! YAY!!! (MUAHAHAHAHAHAAAaaa I WILL beat the system!)
OHH! And I'm really happy that I'll be meeting a friend I knew from Inti, flying all the way from Brisbane to Sydney! Woahhh nostalgic of Inti... (I wished I kept in contact with my close friends!).
Yesterday I walked into a door... you know, the sharp end. UWHAAaa wanna cry cos cuts my eyebrown and lips... sigh... Let's all pray that I dont have any scars. So I became a hermit for today, dont want to see anybody. Weee.... (yes yes... you must think am I crazy for being happy now?) Well, let's just say, I'm glad the impact didnt cause me to lose any tooth... *ETO...* (yes yes, you might be laughing like mad now. Because of your insensitivity.. I will end now with a Zzzz... back to Econs study)