Meow meow

Today... CG was awesome!! (and I didnt only say that because I facilitated it... muahahaha... God's grace!). Worship (Henny leading! GO GIRL!!) was awesome and I love how my CG is so encouraging and open... not like..
Steph : Can anyone tell me their experience...
~SILENCE~~~
Muahahaaaaaaaa... everyone talked alot except Penjahat (who probably is thinking of a plot to take over the universe... :) )
And bringing someone new to CG is so fresh (fresh blood..... OHOHOHOooo) but I'm glad OP enjoyed himself! Looking forward to seeing him in Hillsongs! ~ See God is so encouraging in getting me to go to church! =D (can you believe he only stays 30sec from me in Penang? WOAH! God really knows how to connect people!)
YAYYY!! Da Wei was there... I hope he comes somemore~~
I guess God softens my heart again. (Look at prev post, you will see that I'm blasting at everybody and everything). I just get annoyed with some people... I wanted the CG to pray that annoying crappy people will not come annoy me (or little things people do wont annoy me), but the CG actually prayed for more Grace for me. (EHHHHH!! It means that I dont have sufficient grace for these people!). Yes, I'm tired, lack of sleep and have assignments pilling up and heavily weighted midsessions around the corner.. I need your grace God, so I can be graceful to people. ><

Randomness

10 more weeks.... then I put my butt on an airplane....
If anybody talks to me about, "wha why you complain about Australia? You so fortunate to study there...." I will give them a spanking!
Let me get this straight, no where is heaven when you have to stress out, work towards STUPIAK, meaningless, crap assignments, juggle your time like crazy while trying to maintain a social life with other monkeys juggling their hectic lives also. So I aint have time for crap.

No, I dont regret coming here to study, love experiencing new cultures, different people, getting closer to trusting God, friends, experiencing the real world, growing up and being independent and confident (not to mention I actually love the things I'm studying especially in a top uni, feel so challenged... Muahahahaa I will defeat you!) But the thing is.... I need a break. I need to find some solace in not doing anything, I need that time where I relaxed soo much that I actually feel guilty not studying. Not always thinking of what I have to do next, what plan, what schedule, what to complete!!! ><

OMG, I was just talking to a Christian while writing this and I realized...
"sometimes God takes you out of your complacent, comfortable, wonderful comfort zone and put you somewhere... "hotcake" . But in the end... you see more and more of His purpose...Sometimes, it's not about you and how comfortable you are.... but where youre needed to be..." and no, he didnt said that, I did.... weird... (revelation?)

Piggy

I went to Cheryl's blog and thought, cool I'll adopt a pet too! Kawaiii ><
Hmmm... someone once called me a piglet so is it any wonder I adopted a piggy?
And I look around my room and think.... hmm maybe I am like a piggy.

adopt your own virtual pet!

Emmm ><

I have started eating fruits because of umm... technical difficulties with the bowels. ><
Does anyone know how to peel an orange?! ><

Woahhh

Woahhh... so depressing one my blog. My mum was like "WHY SO DEPRESSING ONE!?!?" and I was looking at it and I was like....eto... why so depressing one?!??
Ok now getting back to momentum of life! No more depressing-ness!! Woahh assignments works pilling up... how behind am I now? Time to jolt myself with lots of Greentea (caffeine).
Update: Is getting warmer here. Am trying to get back to reading my Bible. Study study, watch Stargate and Tv, play and am waking up for breakfast... starting to eat fruits... -_-
I will make it through!! Ganbarimasu!!! About 13 weeks left before I put my butt on Malaysian Airlines and fly back to Thai... I mean... Malaysia.
Dear God, sorry yaa for you having put up with my sadness and eto sometimes crappiness -_-' I will stand up again ok! God, take care of everyone I love and care about(including me) ... and I will fight fight fight!! Muahahahaaaa....
Oh update on my portfolios.... errr.... I got about 2000+ from just one counter... but the rest are falling down... -.-, STUPIAK Westpac... you suppose to be top banking company in Australia...your shares are crappy!

Rising up again

God, who am I? I think I lost that view again.
God, what matters? I think I lost that revelation again.
God, what am I doing here? I think I lost that hope again.
God, what should I do? I think I lost direction again.
God, how will I get through? I think I lost faith again.
God, who cares? I think I lost love again.
Help me to love myself again. I think I lost my sense.
Lord, help me. I pretend I'm strong, but you know better.

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Our God is an awesome God
He reigns from heaven above
With wisdom, power, and love
Our God is an awesome God

Our God is an awesome God
He reigns from heaven above
With wisdom, power, and love
Our God is an awesome God

Dearest God

Dearest God, what have I done to caused me and others so much pain and grief. I'm sorry....

It hurts

Hurts...

Trusting God

Thy Word is a lamp unto my feet
And a light unto my path.
Thy Word is a lamp unto my feet,
And a light unto my path.

When I feel afraid,
Think I've lost my way,
Still You're there, right beside me.
Nothing will I fear,
As long as You are near.
Please, be near me to the end

Rebels

I wanna rebel and not study... OH Nooo! But I will thrive, for my family, muahahaaa. Update on portfolio... (errr... earned 49 dollars after there reset the system and make me lose 1000+ from my UGL investment! Noooo now I'm never gonna be able to buy that share at a low price again!
Anyways... today talking abit to Jin about forgiveness.
Let me tell you what I think forgiveness is, to me forgiving means laying everything down before God and trusting him to take care of everything. Forgiving also means forgiving yourself that you cant change the past and whatever happen, happened. Forgiveness means that you dont have evil thoughts for the person you think did you wrong.
Now, we go to what forgiveness is not. (in my opinion) Forgiveness is NOT agreeing with what the person did or saying it's ok he did what he did and "I forgive him". Forgiveness does not mean reconciliation, (from what I think), (imagine, someone takes advantage of you, u forgive that person, doesnt mean u reconcile with him because in the future, that person might do that again, ie, think rapist. [Yes I'm very sensitive about rape issues due to my country having big crime rate in that area and for the victims who suffers the emotional trauma, I dont expect them to reconcile with their predators])
Now we go into actions. There is no excuse for your actions you do to other people or for the life you live that's miserable (if you have 5 basic rights, think of those that have nothing but still have joy). Your past is no excuse. (ie, I killed someone cos my dad was brutal to me... boohoo). You situation is no excuse, (I'm tired so I'm cranky... OH NOOOOO this is my situation, ok I must change myself, yes I know theories, doesnt mean i practice it... mauhahaa).
If you let situation or your past controls you, dont make an excuse for it. Apologize to those you did wrong. I apologized when I let situation control me (I should apologize more... -_- , I'll try to be better! )

CG~

Cg is good. A good time to worship God (Weeee), learning Godly values, catch up with your friends and laugh til your tummy hurts. =D
Thanks for being accepting loving CG~ I wish that Christians everywhere are surrounded by friends like you guys~ (umm even though sometimes we (ok ok, I) get mad at each other, cos we are far from perfect). But Christian people should be loving, embracing and encouraging. Iron sharpens iron. I think we are placed in this world to build relationships. If not, everyone should be a hermit or we should just go and meet God already since we 'think' everybody else is not worth the effort, then why do ya still wanna be on Earth? Muahahaa I'm not ready to meet God yet, too many people to influence to be saved!! (eto....) .
YAHHHHHHHHHhhhhhhhh I cannot access Tradingplaces.com.au! And my stocks and money (FAKE ONE! Must emphasize that before mum panics) is going down! Noooooooo
God please let me win... muahaha or at least have a good time playing. I'm so random -_-

Discover the meaning of Names

Stephanie

Crowned one : Greek

Gentle, affectionate and tolerant you are nonetheless determined and ambitious with the ability to lead. Sympathetic and understanding you are a humanitarian who wishes to improve the lives of others less fortunate. You have a keen intellect, strong intuition and creative ideas which are always put to practical purpose. You are loved by others for your inspiring optimism and for being a genuine friend.

:: Hmm... I wonder if I'm all those things. Yupp in my opinion, muahahaha... especially the ambitious part. Crowned one? Muahaa that is sooo me! Oh I can imagine Sanko-chan puking right now

Sandra

Protector of mankind : Greek

You are charming, talented and have a very positive attitude to life so it is hardly surprising that you attract success and recognition. Focussed and patient you understand that material rewards are a result of discipline. Being so creative and with a need for self-expression you may be drawn towards the arts, travel is also likely to be important. A loyal friend, you are a person who must be allowed freedom and independence.

:: Hmm.... Freedom and independence is true! Sanko-chan takes the car and drive like mad (hit a tree and nearly an old man with a BMW) with her friends around... Positive attitude, hm, as in, I'm gonna marry a rich guy and live wealthy (Oh and outdo my sista in everything..ETO)! Muahahaaaa... Protector of mankind?? (eto... wanting to make a boyfriend out of a 6 year old... I would call that, a threat to mankind) haha.

Franklin

A free citizen : French

Having confidence in yourself and integrity you have your emotions under control and are rarely ruffled. You have a quiet and reflective manner and are responsive to the needs of others giving you the ability to be a mediator. You are extremely successful in the material world being organised, financially astute and pursuing realistic goals. Your caring attitude and compassion certainly makes you a loved individual.

:: How ironic since Furankku-chan is learning French. (so that he can use the language of love on unsuspecting women...muahahaa).. Hmm... I remember Furankku's emotions ruffled when I make him my slave abubu...Muahaha...EHHH??! How come here got EXTREMELY SUCCESSFUL and FINANCIALLY ASTUTE??! Nooooo I'm the commerce person! If you have three $$$, I want 4 $$$$.

Discover the meaning of your name

Zzzzz

Hmmm has anyone done 2624 before? Muahahaa if you can, gimme your answers. OHOHOHO, the last round, I had Camei's book with answers... but she only gave me half the book! (cries).

1 Corinthians 15:33 : Do not be misled: "Bad company corrupts good character."
Anyways... today, I just cutoff another(hmm has there been anyone else? Oh ya!) person from my life. Yes, call me selfish, self-centered or cruel, whatever... but unless youre in my position, say what you wanna say. (I realize that people who drag you down, stay away) Anyways this person has been the part of the source of alot of grief for me last semester, how I cried so much because some people are soo messed up about God. But anyways what's worst is that I became a dumping ground for people garbage, insecurity, self-pity, frustration, discontentment with other people etc.etc.. (hmm maybe I was crying for myself, how I'm so nice and sweet that people take advantage of my kindness... AHEM)
Puh-leaseee seriously, I dont mind hearing your sadness and pain but when it comes to dumping everything on me without wanting to hear my advice, it's a one way traffic, dont you think? What's worst, the person's thinking is sooo distorted, its all wrong. (he insists he's right though)
Today, as a test, I asked that person to gimme his answers for this week's tute, he said that he worked so hard on it... blabla I might get marks for things I didnt do, blabla and what worst, asked me what I'm willing to give in return. Hah... no wonder people like this feel like they are alone in this world and nobody loves them. Boohooo... I told him to get a life. End of story. (Puhlease, my friend ask me to lend her my answers, I got up early to give it to her and even help explain to her... whoa~ so sweet ><) Sorry God, but I had enough tolerating people that I give my all to but then they give me crap in return. Please, I deserve better. Any Christians wanna debate?

Christian groups

Weee... let's hear some sad stories. When I was young, I was excluded from a Christian Youth CG (sort of my sis and bro too). Maybe I wasnt cool or as confident as I am now, maybe they were just too clicked with each other (you know... my parents are rich so I'm choosy, or you guys are new and disturbing my comfort zone, blabla who cares?). Anyway I voiced out my view which only made me more excluded from the group. Growing up as a teen, that was the worst rejection ever because if people from school, anywhere did that, I wouldnt bother (in fact I was popular in school! with non-Christians... irony), but Christians, those you wish you connected with and arent suppose to act that way, that's a different story. I cried then ~~ but it only made me stronger.
Now, muahahahahahaaaa I'm so fortunate.... I'm here in Australia, and I have plenty of friends and Christian friends to hang out with.
Anyways, why the gloomy story? Well.. today I left a Christian group meeting in IH. Maybe I should apologize for it, but I refuse to be part of a group that's just concentrated on a few "elite". It's really boring when only one end of the table is the main focus and youre back to those few popular people (or people youre comfortable with). Shesshhhh get to know everyone for heaven's sake and include everyone. There were non-Christians there, get them included! Well, here's my apology, Sorry~ But if you wanna click and just talk to yourselves or about yourselves only, I'm out. I've had enough of that. -_- I've learned that I dont have to do what I dont want to do or keep everything inside. Cheers~

Picking momentum

Do you suffer from this sickness called"crankiness due to lack of sleep". Symptoms are as such:
a. Feeling cranky
b. Stress by lots of work
b. Want things done quickly
c. Cravings to sleep but eventually traded for the opportunity cost of playing
d. Wishing lecturers would finish faster (Oh wait... no, that's just common sense)
e. Need to eat more Gingko to jolt "sleepy" braincells
f. Always eating to stay awake

If you do suffer from this sick-ness, we will direct you to a fellow ex-victim of this. She would help counsel you. Studies have proven that this sickness can be cured by having lots of sleep. Unfortunately, this disease re-occurs in the victims once "lack-of-sleep" has taken effect again. We do recommend that during exam period, drink lots of water, use the lavatory and have a goodnight rest to avoid this reoccurence. Thank you.
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